Week 3 and I've lightened. I've found my groove of a daily routine with balancing work and this island life.
I love the light here. I love the tropical fruits literally falling off the trees and the mango growing right outside our window. I love the view from my air mattress (did you just giggle a little? me too) and the way I can hear the crashing waves when I go to sleep at night. I love the ocean, the beach... I love the beach SO much. I go there every day and drink it in. It's my lunch break. It's where I read. It's where I walk. As Cliff would say "it's the warehouse" where peace is stored.
I've been doing yoga to The Cinematic Orchestra. This one is my favorite. It's kind of a sad song-- I guess-- but I don't feel sad when I listen to it. I just feel in touch with how I'm feeling. It's just so soulful and at the moment since I don't have a literal home of my own I'm very aware of how I've come to find home within myself and finally... finally I don't feel alone. I actually look forward to spending time with myself.
Three weeks into the journey I'm finding more and more things to be grateful for. I wake up each morning and list them all off in my mind, sometimes I sing it like a 3 year old saying her prayers. Some mornings it's pickles, sunshine, and my effortlessly wild curly hair and others it's my husband, my Rachel, my Ned, my family. A lot lately it's my sister and the connection we have despite the distance. There's this magic in her as she's growing a little life inside of her with the authenticity and humor that can only be translated through her words.
I'm writing lots. I'm reading lots more. I'm watching documentaries that are stirring ideas and growing inspirations. I'm walking next to, sitting by and spending time with the sea. Generally all that translates to spending massive amounts of time with myself... And it's all moving right along. And I'm finding that in the silence when all is stripped away and I face myself-- I love this girl staring back at me very much. I love her passion and desires. I hear her little whispers and I believe in her dreams. And for the first time the bright future is not so much the focus but just this one little present moment. Just this one right now. And now this one. And it's all perfect.
Love from Hawaii!
Thanks for following along with me on the journey and for sending your love.
I've felt it and I'm grateful for it.