New Strengths

Our second ayahuasca ceremony (of eight) was last night. To date it was the hardest thing I've ever done. Harder than having my chin stitched to my chest for 7 days post trachea surgery. Harder than divorce. Harder than closing a business and going through foreclosure. Harder than the unexpected death of my uncle Todd. 🌑🌑🌑
I was confronted with darkness that I wasn't sure I could bear. It's taken me all day to begin processing it and what I know is this - I will not quit before the miracles reveal themselves and I am not a victim of this medicine.
No ceremony tonight which feels like the most incredible gift.