I received an email from a dear girl who is in the midst of transition and I saw so much of my story in her words. She went to a yoga class, and another and another. She feel madly and deeply in love with the practice and the way her body felt fully engaged in the present moment of each pose. She paid lots of money for proper schooling and credentials. She became a certified yoga teacher. She loved teaching. And now that her shiny new website is built and ready to roll out into the world it's become unavoidably clear that it's time to move on. Disappointment. Guilt. So many feelings are colliding all at once. Then the justification that she spent the money on the site... shouldn't she see it through?
I'm here to say permission granted to change course in the very moment that you know it's time. Seriously. We all do that thing over money from time-to-time. You spend "good" money on something really big and then there's that moment of pause... you use the money as a justification to keep going even though every fiber of your being is saying MOVE ON RIGHT NOW!
Honoring your intuition is sacred ground. Do it. At all cost. Some days it may be something really big like NOT publishing the site. Others is may be seemingly small like not finishing a book. It's your life and you get to live it however you want. Exercise that beautiful freedom.
Letting it go (whatever it is) can be excruciating and at the same time completely necessary. It is ok that something (or someone) once filled you up body and soul and then it was time to move on. I spent my 20's trying to make a living out of things I loved. Yoga. Making Scrapbooks. Creating herbal products. etc. etc. etc. I changed paths often and with a great deal of struggle. I wish someone had said that it's O.K. to keep going and change course when you know it's time. Mid way through my 30's I'm seeing how it's all been a part of the journey that is still very much in motion. I can only image the clarity that the 40's will bring.
Release the guilt, dear girl. Forgive yourself. Often. You showed up, burned brightly and when the time was right you let it go. That's practicing yoga off the mat. That's listening to your sacred voice and it's always worth it no matter how much it cost to get there.
Clear space so that your what next can peek through and wink at you. Clear space... In your body. In your closet. In your kitchen cabinets. In your email inbox. Let go of the things (or people) that are ready to move on and take your next step in the direction that feels light and joyous.
I love you. You've got this. Lacy